Lana, was it difficult for you to start from scratch?
Lana: I feel like an emigrant for the second time. My parents and all my ancestors are from Kurdistan.
My grandfather’s family fled from Turkey to Georgia, then from Georgia to Armenia, where I was born. From there, we moved to Russia.
If I remember correctly, Kurds have faced genocide more than a hundred times. We practice Yazidism, and Muslims consider us pagans.
At some point, I tried to understand why this happened. In my opinion, it comes down to misinterpretation and a refusal to understand—it’s easier to call us "idol worshippers." But in reality, Yazidism is an ancient faith.
I distinctly remember the in-between state of an emigrant—for example, thinking in my native language but struggling to understand Russian.
Small ethnic groups often cling to their traditions, some of which feel medieval. For us, it’s not even about family—it’s about clan and lineage. We know our ancestors up to the seventh generation, and in my entire family history, there hasn’t been a single case of inbreeding.
If my father met a Kurd in Barcelona today, he would immediately know everything about that person through our global kinship system.
Is there a Kurdish community in Barcelona?
Lana: I don’t know. And I don’t know if I want to know yet.
That sounds contradictory—you say you belong to the community, yet you don’t engage with it and instead build a Russian-speaking one.
Lana: I struggle with self-identity. Right now, I’m trying to understand who I am—what Russia and the Russian language mean to me, what Kurdistan and the Kurds mean to me.
All my life, I wanted to become Russian—to learn the language, integrate, assimilate, and understand what it means to be part of Russian culture.
Ironically, it’s only in Spain that I finally feel like a Russian woman.
Lana, by the way, what did you do in Russia?
Lana: I never even finished ninth grade—I worked a lot.
I started as a sales assistant, and eventually, I opened my own business. For the last twelve years, I’ve been running a transportation company, and it’s still operating.
I also own a chain of nail salons.
That’s why I can afford not to earn money from Kvartirnik—on the contrary, I finance it.